Showing posts with label Luc. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Luc. Show all posts

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Holding her Own


Lucy continues to hold her own.  This has become such a zen experience. I feel so adrift...floating in this space of Lucy dying.  But she's still here and that brings me great joy.  She ate well today, even with a fever.  She took a little walk but the exertion wipes her out.  

My own body is not doing so well with managing this grief and loss.  I haven't been feeling well for about a week now...low energy, pain, lack of ambition.  Just want to sleep.   I recognize these are signs of depression, but I must go forward and be willing to experience this illness of Lucy's in the manner in which I am experiencing it.  

She is with me every day and the joy she continues to bring people is nothing short of astonishing.  She greets 99% of strangers with an exuberant desire to be loved and her cute little hind end tail stub just wiggles and wiggles....Lucy is a delight, as always!